Weigh In: 248.0
Gain: 3.2
Biggest Loser Style: +1.31%
Remaining: 88
New NWA: 2.378
Week Two is always hell. And this time, my monthly friend decided to crash the party. And, it's coming up on the end of the semester and I've got a buttload of homework I procrastinated on. So all in all...I'm actually relieved to see only 3.2 pounds gained. Usually on a Week Two I gain back everything I lost in week one. And usually, after that happens, I give up for a few weeks until I hate myself enough to make myself start again, a new Week One, and everything just happens all over again.
That's not what's going to happen this time.
I'm entering new territory tomorrow: Week Three. I'm going to accept that I fell but intsead of lying there crying and hating myself, I'm going to try something new: I'm just gonna get up and keep moving. Simple, I know. But harder to do than say. Wish me luck!
Good luck to you all,
JadeAmber
Weight Progress!
Showing posts with label Celestial. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Celestial. Show all posts
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Shakespeare and Morimoto
I've been watching Iron Chef and it's so interesting to see all the wierd ingredients and cooking methods, but what I am overwhelmingly impressed with is the fact that most of the things they use are, like, real food. I'm sure you know what I mean. For someone who's used to McDonald's and Hamburger Helper, this all looks amazing. There's no way in hell I could do most of what they do, but there's plenty of ways (in and out of hell, haha) that I could obtain most of the things they use, because they're fruits and vegetables and stuff. It gives me a new appreciation for real food. It really makes me want to cook!
I finally worked out for the first time this week. There's a park here, called Shakespeare Park, which is something like 2.3 or 2.4 miles long (I'm not really sure) but anyway, 6 weeks ago the fastest I could do it was 43 minutes. I got it down to 39 minutes about 3 weeks ago, and today...37! Yay, improvement! So that's my Non-Scale Victory for today.
Prayer and focus and this week's episode of Biggest Loser and Iron Chef have all combined to help me get most of the way out of my self-pity hole that is Week Two. However...that time of the month is upon me. Which means that all bets are off for this week's weigh in. It's a little...I dunno...frustrating? wierd? disappointing? to start to do so much better and then have this guarantee that this weigh in will be bad. Oh well. Such is that time of the month. But you know what I'm NOT gonna do? Give up! That's right folks, I'm here to stay. Good weigh in, bad weigh in, fails, victories, whatever, I'm just gonna keep going. And Christmas is going to bow to me!
Good luck to you all!
-JadeAmber
I finally worked out for the first time this week. There's a park here, called Shakespeare Park, which is something like 2.3 or 2.4 miles long (I'm not really sure) but anyway, 6 weeks ago the fastest I could do it was 43 minutes. I got it down to 39 minutes about 3 weeks ago, and today...37! Yay, improvement! So that's my Non-Scale Victory for today.
Prayer and focus and this week's episode of Biggest Loser and Iron Chef have all combined to help me get most of the way out of my self-pity hole that is Week Two. However...that time of the month is upon me. Which means that all bets are off for this week's weigh in. It's a little...I dunno...frustrating? wierd? disappointing? to start to do so much better and then have this guarantee that this weigh in will be bad. Oh well. Such is that time of the month. But you know what I'm NOT gonna do? Give up! That's right folks, I'm here to stay. Good weigh in, bad weigh in, fails, victories, whatever, I'm just gonna keep going. And Christmas is going to bow to me!
Good luck to you all!
-JadeAmber
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Get It Together
Holy crap, my life has no structure!
I need to get my act together. I spend so much time just wasting time. Meanwhile dishes pile up, I don't work out, I don't do homework...are The Antonio Treatment and The Pretender and Burn Notice all really that important?
I am irrationally worried that if I put myself on a schedule I'll somehow never have fun again. That doesn't make any sense, but I can't see that. I don't even know how that would work I just know that's what I'm afraid of. I don't even know what I'm trying to accomplish by writing about it, I just am. I'm frustrated. I don't want to always be behind, but I don't know how to start fixing it.
I have three group projects and two twenty-page papers all due at various points this month. I've probably done 1% of the work. My kitchen is a mess. So's my bathroom. I haven't worked out this week. For shizzle, that's messed up. It's so messed up I felt the need to say "for shizzle".
Hope you're all more productive than me,
JadeAmber
I need to get my act together. I spend so much time just wasting time. Meanwhile dishes pile up, I don't work out, I don't do homework...are The Antonio Treatment and The Pretender and Burn Notice all really that important?
I am irrationally worried that if I put myself on a schedule I'll somehow never have fun again. That doesn't make any sense, but I can't see that. I don't even know how that would work I just know that's what I'm afraid of. I don't even know what I'm trying to accomplish by writing about it, I just am. I'm frustrated. I don't want to always be behind, but I don't know how to start fixing it.
I have three group projects and two twenty-page papers all due at various points this month. I've probably done 1% of the work. My kitchen is a mess. So's my bathroom. I haven't worked out this week. For shizzle, that's messed up. It's so messed up I felt the need to say "for shizzle".
Hope you're all more productive than me,
JadeAmber
Monday, April 4, 2011
Celestial
This week's color is a slightly dark sort of primary blue called "Celestial". There's one clear meaning I'm getting out of this one: remember God this week! Most times I try to lose weight I am okay for the first week but the second week all my self-stoppers come into play. "You did well, time for a break". "You did well, now there's pressure to do that well again, you can't take it!" "Last week wasn't spectacularly perfect which means you're a failure, which means you should just not even try". I could go on, but I'm sure most of you know exactly what I'm talking about.
Even now I'm full of chocolate and burritos. Why? Because I have the added excuse-factory of piles and piles of homework. I procrastinated, as usual, and now I feel overwhelmed. My solution was eating. That was the wrong choice, and I'm glad I made myself admit to it because now I feel like maybe I can get past it tonight, right now. But what always, always works, when I need to stop and turn around, is prayer. I know not everyone understands and I'm not going to get preachy, I'm just explaining why I need this color this week. Week Two is the week I usually give up and fade out. I need a lot of strength this week. I didn't pray at all today and it didn't go very well. (Hear that me? The colors are no good if you don't listen! lol) So now I'm going to do that, and try to focus on studying instead of chocolate and burritos.
I had a goal of doing another six pounds this week. You can predict when I'm going to sabatoge myself; it's usually when I tried to make a goal for myself. Sure enough, like clockwork, today happened. It's me trying to let me off the hook. "There's no way you can lose six pounds now, not after today, game's over, go home everybody". But if I let myself off the hook then I will have reinforced that sabatoging behavior (like I always have) so I'm not going to do that this time. I hereby STILL have the goal for myself of losing another six pounds this week. I'll be okay if I don't meet that goal. I'll be okay because that's what I've decided and I'll still love myself. So with constant prayer I know tomorrow and the rest of the week I'm going to really impress myself with my new levels of self-control.
Good luck to you all,
JadeAmber
Even now I'm full of chocolate and burritos. Why? Because I have the added excuse-factory of piles and piles of homework. I procrastinated, as usual, and now I feel overwhelmed. My solution was eating. That was the wrong choice, and I'm glad I made myself admit to it because now I feel like maybe I can get past it tonight, right now. But what always, always works, when I need to stop and turn around, is prayer. I know not everyone understands and I'm not going to get preachy, I'm just explaining why I need this color this week. Week Two is the week I usually give up and fade out. I need a lot of strength this week. I didn't pray at all today and it didn't go very well. (Hear that me? The colors are no good if you don't listen! lol) So now I'm going to do that, and try to focus on studying instead of chocolate and burritos.
I had a goal of doing another six pounds this week. You can predict when I'm going to sabatoge myself; it's usually when I tried to make a goal for myself. Sure enough, like clockwork, today happened. It's me trying to let me off the hook. "There's no way you can lose six pounds now, not after today, game's over, go home everybody". But if I let myself off the hook then I will have reinforced that sabatoging behavior (like I always have) so I'm not going to do that this time. I hereby STILL have the goal for myself of losing another six pounds this week. I'll be okay if I don't meet that goal. I'll be okay because that's what I've decided and I'll still love myself. So with constant prayer I know tomorrow and the rest of the week I'm going to really impress myself with my new levels of self-control.
Good luck to you all,
JadeAmber
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Week 1 Results
Weigh In: 244.8
Loss: 6.0
Biggest Loser Style: 2.39%
Remaining: 84.8
New NWA: 2.232
Week One went pretty well! I fell off more and more as it went on, but I still stayed within fairly reasonable bounds. All in all, I am excited about six pounds and I'm looking forward to six more this week!
Good luck to you all!
-JadeAmber
Loss: 6.0
Biggest Loser Style: 2.39%
Remaining: 84.8
New NWA: 2.232
Week One went pretty well! I fell off more and more as it went on, but I still stayed within fairly reasonable bounds. All in all, I am excited about six pounds and I'm looking forward to six more this week!
Good luck to you all!
-JadeAmber
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)