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Wednesday, March 30, 2011

My Food Plan

There is an awesome cookbook called "Power Foods", which is "150 delicious recipes with the 38 healthiest ingredients" (from the editors of whole living magazine).  My food plan is simple: I eat things off that list.  I try to make sure that I hit them all at least once each week.  I can have a few things that are not on the list, namely cereal, granola, whole grain bread, whole grain pasta, and whole grain tortillas.  That makes it a lot easier, basically.  I know how to cook/use those things already.  But yeah, it's very simple.  And delicious, so far.  Exercise, for now, consists of walks, with the occasional attempt at a jog.  Taking it easy at first. 

Last night and today I've felt sick.  Which doesn't help.  But I'm trudging through anyway!

Good luck to you all!

Monday, March 28, 2011

Snow Queen

Before this post makes any sense, I must explain my nail polish thing.  A few attempts ago, I thought it would be fun to wear a new color of nail polish every five pounds, as a reward system kind of thing since I'm broke.  I got colors with cool motivational names like "hot tamale" and "risk taker", things that had meaning to me.  That was fun, but five pounds can take a while, and I'd have a color on way longer than it's designed to stay on (as in, they'd get chipped and I'd get sick of looking at them).  So this time, I decided that I'd have a new nail polish color every week and sort of meditate on those meanings and let them focus my energies on the various lessons I need to be learning and things I need to be remembering and looking forward to.  So, every Sunday I'll put on the new color (and post the weigh-in) and every Monday I'll explain the color and write a bit on what I'm gonna focus on that week, as inspired by the name of the color.  Silly, I know, but I really like it.

So, this week the color is Snow Queen.  I'll get a picture at some point, but this color is simply white.  There are two aspects of this color.  First, it represents a clean slate.  Pure white innocence, as far as weight loss goes.  I can't keep beating myself up for all my previous failures.  I have to chose to take the good from them and discard the rest.  I need to learn from my mistakes and then forgive myself.  I need a clean slate, and this color reminds me that I can have one, any morning I wake up and decide to give myself one.  It's easier than painting a color on my nails!  :-)  The second is the title, Snow Queen.  It brings up the image of an aloof, immovable, cold woman of power.  I need a little bit of that during the first week.  I have to be a little mean/distant/uncaring of some parts of myself.  There are bits of me that weep every time I choose kale and quinoa instead of pizza and lasagna.  I need to ignore that part, even if it's my "inner child", I need to tell it to shut up and go to bed or it's grounded.  It's tough love, and historically it's not something I'm good at when the subject is me.  I'm great at it with others, which makes me a hypocrite.  I'd like to fix that, obviously! 

So there we have it.  Those are the two things I'm going to be pondering and focusing on this week.  I know, I know, I'm weird!  But I like me, so it's okay.  :-)

Good luck to you all!

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Beginer's Stats and My Brain

Hello!  This is a weight loss blog.  I hope it helps you.  If you're not interested in weight loss, turn back now before it's too late!

I weigh, as of this morning, 250.8 pounds.  Which is horrendous.  I have been trying to lose weight pretty much since I can remember.  Why is the weight still here?  Well, lots of reasons.  Part of me is terrified of being thin because I've been using fat as a shield from, you know, the rest of the world.  I'm sure I'll probably go into the reasons later, but right now I'm trying to introduce this blog.  Focus!  OK.

I have tried many times to lose weight.  Basically, long story short, I realized recently that all of those attempts were very middle-ground-y.  And that's not how I like to roll.  I like for things to be efficient, to just be what they are and not waste resources hedging bets.   But that's what all the previous attempts were like!  I wasn't marching to my own tune when I'd try to lose weight.  I had plans that tried to be in the middle between effective and not-too-difficult.  Bollocks.  I just need to pick one and go with it, and so I have picked effective over easy.  I will explain my Food Plan tomorrow because I don't want to write anymore right now.  :-)  But it's awesomely efficient.  And I'll also explain my very weird Nail Polish Motivational System.  Capitalizing it makes it look like the title of a book written by a former sorority girl with one class of psychology under her belt facing middle age with a pall of boredom over her life, which is fun.  But again I digress.

Good luck to you all!